Sunday, August 31, 2014

Bumpin'

I feel like I am so extremely busy it is so hard to get a chance to sit down and blog. We've been out of town 3 of the 4 last weekends, and the weeks are no piece of cake with work and all the new things happening there. We have been having a blast so that's all that matters! Last weekend we found out the sex of our little baby! It was so very exciting. I will be posting photos of the gender reveal soon, it just will take me a little to get to it. This is the most important though is to post the updated bump photos!

I feel like I am showing a lot, and people just keep coming up to me // that I know of course \\ and telling me I don't even look pregnant. Man, is that hard to hear! I want to look pregnant! Somebody explained their thoughts yesterday saying it's because it is all just in the belly there is nothing else about me that looks pregnant. I hope I start to show more on my belly though because I still don't think it's that noticeable based on people's comments. 

I have been feeling pretty good, definitely been having more energy but I do still want to fall asleep about 9:30-10:30 depends on what I am doing though. We got a new bed this week and it feels amazballs. It is a tempur-pedic and we got the adjustable base so we can sit up and watch TV effortlessly. It also helps a lot with my acid reflux, because we sleep with it slightly elevated. We have not wanted to do anything but lay in it everyday. We look forward to coming home and getting into bed. I will have to post photos! Anyways, back on how I am feeling, yes I feel great! Now that we know the sex of the baby, there is lots of shopping being done, and lots of plans for the nursery going into place. I am trying to get a bunch done I haven't gotten done because I know our due date will approach fast, especially with all the holidays in between. Maybe it's part of nesting, just making sure other things are also in order in the house so when baby comes we don't have to worry about much else. We will see what we accomplish this week!

Here are the updated bump photos!


The one with the 12th week:



The one with the 13th week:






The one with the 14th week:








The one with the 15th week:








Stay tuned for the next post, we will be revealing the sex of the baby!!!!!





Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Never Give Up

Hello people! So yeah, it's been awhile...I am trying not to feel guilty...but I guess I have an excuse. Well, I can always come up with an excuse I guess. This last month has been so busy. We have had some changes at work with employees and with planning our gender reveal party // so excited for it!!! \\ and just regular work and home chores. Today though, I felt especially compelled to write a post.

I have been so saddened by Robin Williams' death. It hits home for me. I have been in those shoes where I was depressed. Where my anxiety was so extremely bad that I didn't know how to go on with another day. It was too hard to live. It was too hard to keep going. I have had those feelings. I have felt those things. I have had suicidal thoughts. It hurts me to know somebody out there gave up hope. Hope can change everything. Faith can change everything. God can change ANYTHING. I will always be an advocate of never giving up. I will always tell people to keep going. I suggest getting the help you need professionally and spiritually, but never giving up hope in the process. I am proof, it works. You can beat it. You can improve. It can almost not effect you at all. I did it without medicine. I am so proud of it. I just wish others would hear this side instead of the side that everybody always hears about...suicide. 

I came across this article my cousin shared on Facebook that I felt really hit on exactly how I felt about suicide. Matt Walsh wrote it, and I know there are people out there who don't agree, I know there are people out there who have other opinions, which are all valid, because everybody can have their own opinion but this is my opinion. My opinion is backed up with proof of myself, that there is a choice. I chose. I chose to keep living, to not give up, and to get more help. I did...and look at me now. There are all different "cases" of depression, anxiety, and psychological disorders, but do we really think God can't heal ANYTHING!?! He can make blind people see, He can make the crippled walk again. Why can't he heal the worst psychological disorders and make them no longer exist? 

I don't believe in giving up, loosing hope, or losing faith. I believe it's a choice to help yourself. Everybody, family, friends, neighbors, God, can only do so much if you aren't willing to accept the problem and want to change.

Obviously, Robin Williams wanted to change. He tried. He has gone to rehab, and facilities to help his issues, he was trying, but he gave up. There was no need to give up, because it could of gotten better. Now, his family, his kids, his wife, have to deal with the sadness and the depression that comes with loosing a loved one, especially by suicide. He was a great man, he was hilarious, he was knowledgeable. What really sticks out to me about who he was, was it seemed like even though he played comical roles, there were still deep meaning in words he said. Every movie has a profound quote that we can apply to life. He gave other people tools to succeed, and to believe. 

"No matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world." -Robin Williams

There are other views on this subject, but what is stopping mine from changing the world, or saving a life? 

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."
- Ian Maclaren

Remember:

Never. Give. Up.
Hope. Can. Change. Everything.
There's. Hope. In. Front. Of. Me.
No. Man. Is. An. Island.
You. Are. Not. Alone.
You. Are. Always. Right. Beside. Me.