Friday, May 16, 2014

I'm tired

The title says it all. I am so tired. I feel like I need to purchase this shirt from hello apparel because I am just so tired. 
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Being tired to me doesn't just mean exhausted, // which I am // it means like mentally and physically I.AM.WORN. I feel I have nothing left to give. I feel I have so much I need to figure out and do mentally and emotionally that is consuming my thoughts and making it hard for me to feel awake. This week has been rough to say the least, but I am still kicking which is great news! Today was an especially tough day for me. I have a lot going on in this brain of mine. I was on my way to work and realized I forgot my breakfast at home. That was first clue today was going to be interesting, but I tried to keep my head up and realize that not getting to eat my normal breakfast was an excuse to eat a nutter butter for breakfast. Better believe I did. There is a big fat chance that today was rough because of how emotional I have been the last two days. I have been working with my counselor on some pretty deep stuff, and I am having a really tough time with it all coming up and having to deal with it. On top of my everyday emotional and stressful stuff I also have that. Looking back at my day now, I feel like I am feeling down about myself and who I am. We all have those kinds of days.

The great thing is that I know this is normal. I am not the only person with days like this. I am not the only person that won't feel confident in themselves every single day of their lives. There are good days and there are bad days and that's the reality of it. I am not afraid to admit I have bad days, I mean I am only human! I know that God is what I need to feel good again and revived. I need to feel alive again. I need a nice, long, relaxing, calming weekend so I can feel rested and rejuvenated. I need time to relax and time to connect with God. 

These two songs express my feelings exactly. Every word. Worn made me cry while I was driving in the car yesterday because every word spoke to me. I am sure somebody else in this word needs this song so I wanted to share it. The second song, Starts With Me, is kind of the song I play in my head after Worn. It is a little more upbeat and reminds me that when I am on my knees, weak and tired, I need a revival song. I need a song that helps me get back on my feet. God is my revival song, He gets me back on my feet even after a tough day like today. 

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