Thursday, May 29, 2014

Lord, I Leave it in Your Hands

This past week I have had a lot of anxiety. It has been a tough week. Luckily, like always God brought me through it. I came out of it and am feeling very confident. There isn't quite a description how it feels to kind of have a relapse like that. It feels so sucky, and it feels like you have failed because it hasn't happened in a year. One of the times this last week I was in the middle of having a panic attack, I was driving, and a song came on K-LOVE just when I needed to hear these exact words; "You brought me this far, so why would I question You now? You have provided so why would I start to doubt? I've never been stranded, abandoned or left here to fight alone, so I'm giving You control". It's funny how this has been one of my favorite songs for the last few months, but I forget about what it has taught me until I hear it again. It was such a needed reminder. I need to leave my anxiety and fears and nerves in the Lord's Hands, I need to lift my life up. It's not mine anyways. The only way I can make a difference in this world is by sharing my experiences and hoping that maybe just one person will be touched by my story and what worked for me. I know when I am going through a tough time, it comforts me to hear what works for others so I can see if it will also work for me.

Listening to K-LOVE is probably my top go-to when I am having anxiety. It's positive and encouraging which I need! A lot of times during an anxiety or panic attacks all I have are negative thoughts and it turns those thoughts around. The songs remind me what I have in God. That I have somebody I can trust in, that will take my fears and worries and not make me deal with them myself. I can't deal with them myself, which doesn't make me weak in any way, in fact it makes me strong, strong in Him. I know that if I just hand it over and let God face them with me, that anything is possible. The impossible becomes possible with God. We often forget when things are fine how much we need to be relying on Him in our everyday life until something goes wrong. I pray I get better at that and can feel that deep connection when everything is great like I do when everything seems to be going a-wall. I know I give all my Glory to God in everything I do, for nothing is possible without Him, but it doesn't feel quite as deep until you feel like you are clinging for your life. 

The K-LOVE station has changed my life so much, it is all I listen to. It's funny because sometimes I will be like, "Okay, let's see what else is on" and I scroll through the channels and I wind up back on K-LOVE because nothing else really seems to be what I want to hear. I love to tell people how it's changed my life in hopes that I can change their lives. I have changed my husbands life by listening to it with him all the time too, and I can honestly say that that is one of the things that makes me the happiest. There is no words for how it makes me feel to be able to share my love with God with my other half. He will wake up most mornings and ask me to play one of his favorite songs // the Tim Timmons song from the last post! //, or we listen to the K-LOVE radio app on my phone and we sing while we are getting ready. There is this one song that when it comes on we sing it at the top of our lungs together. It makes me so happy, my heart could burst! Speaking of things that make me oh so happy…yesterday I went to Andrew's work after I got off to help him do a few things and I walk in and while he was working he had K-LOVE on. I couldn't believe it! Not only does he play it in the car, or in the morning while we are getting ready, but at work too!!!! I am so extremely blessed that God touched my life and allowed me to touch Andrew's and make a noticeable difference in his relationship with God. There is no greater feeling, no greater blessing than to know that you have helped a person become close with God. 

// Anyways, back to the main part of this blog post... // when you feel you are stricken with anxiety, and you have no where else to turn, try remembering to turn to God. Give it to Him. I can say that it brings me so much comfort and it takes all those worries away. I am feeling more confident and more positive just because I looked to God, and I decided to leave it in His hands, and not try to deal with it on my own. 

Here are the two songs that have touched my life this week in a very special way!

1.Lift My Life Up

2. K-Love Fan Awards Mash-up (Andrew and I's favorite!)

P.S. Andrew and I celebrated our 6 month anniversary // monthiversary??? // on the 24th and it was such an amazing day! It is a day we will never forget! I will be posting a photo of the present he surprised me with soon, I am so blessed! It was another thing that made me so very happy!

Friday, May 16, 2014

I'm tired

The title says it all. I am so tired. I feel like I need to purchase this shirt from hello apparel because I am just so tired. 
Purchase it here!

Being tired to me doesn't just mean exhausted, // which I am // it means like mentally and physically I.AM.WORN. I feel I have nothing left to give. I feel I have so much I need to figure out and do mentally and emotionally that is consuming my thoughts and making it hard for me to feel awake. This week has been rough to say the least, but I am still kicking which is great news! Today was an especially tough day for me. I have a lot going on in this brain of mine. I was on my way to work and realized I forgot my breakfast at home. That was first clue today was going to be interesting, but I tried to keep my head up and realize that not getting to eat my normal breakfast was an excuse to eat a nutter butter for breakfast. Better believe I did. There is a big fat chance that today was rough because of how emotional I have been the last two days. I have been working with my counselor on some pretty deep stuff, and I am having a really tough time with it all coming up and having to deal with it. On top of my everyday emotional and stressful stuff I also have that. Looking back at my day now, I feel like I am feeling down about myself and who I am. We all have those kinds of days.

The great thing is that I know this is normal. I am not the only person with days like this. I am not the only person that won't feel confident in themselves every single day of their lives. There are good days and there are bad days and that's the reality of it. I am not afraid to admit I have bad days, I mean I am only human! I know that God is what I need to feel good again and revived. I need to feel alive again. I need a nice, long, relaxing, calming weekend so I can feel rested and rejuvenated. I need time to relax and time to connect with God. 

These two songs express my feelings exactly. Every word. Worn made me cry while I was driving in the car yesterday because every word spoke to me. I am sure somebody else in this word needs this song so I wanted to share it. The second song, Starts With Me, is kind of the song I play in my head after Worn. It is a little more upbeat and reminds me that when I am on my knees, weak and tired, I need a revival song. I need a song that helps me get back on my feet. God is my revival song, He gets me back on my feet even after a tough day like today. 

Saturday, May 10, 2014

DIY Mason Jar Chandelier

I made this chandelier when we were planning our wedding. All the chandelier's that were options to rent were ridiculously priced for just renting it. Why rent when I can buy our own to re-use in our house after our wedding? // That was my thinking most of the time during wedding planning. // Actually, why buy one when I can make one?!? I bought this antique hanging planter box at the antique store I shop at on the daily… Thriftiques. I got mason jars from Sears // cheapest I have found // and bought all the electrical stuff from Ikea. This is an idea I came up with myself, so making it was kind of difficult trying to think through how it'll all work. I really was trying to make it as efficiently as possible, and make it look as best as possible. I had to get the ropes from Home Depot to complete my look so you couldn't see all the cords above the planter box. I love the finished look. Both for the wedding and in our home, it is such a conversation piece. 

I am going to put a how to up here, but I would definitely make one of these if anybody wanted one but didn't want to make it themselves. The only problem is the planter box is not sold anymore. I've tried to find something like it, but haven't gotten to find that yet. One alternative that I have found is a bucket with the mason jars hanging from it. It would probably somewhat resemble Mason Jar in a Basket // Pendant Light // that I created except I would probably have the lights hanging out a little more in a closed basket. Anyways there is so many different options, be sure to email me or contact me if there is something I can gladly do for you!


  1. Planter Box
  2. HEMMA Cord Set from Ikea (I used 12)
  3. Mason Jars (12)

Here are some tools I used other than the main parts. I also used scissors to do finishing cuts on the rope and I bought a extension cord to plug the power stripes into. P.S. Don't forget to use this tutorial DIY Mason Jar Light from Home is What You Make It in order to set up the mason jar lights to work! 

This is what my planter box looked like right after I purchased it.


You can see that every other rope goes in opposite. When one starts over then under, the next starts under then over.

Once I figured out the lengths of the ropes having this pattern, I pre-cut the rest of the ropes using the _______.

This is my progress as I fed the rope over and under the bars. I installed a wood piece up top between the planters so that the cords could wrap around it to hold the cords at the specific length. I put the power strip up there to plug in the lights. As I got to each spot to put the light in I would install a row of three and then continue with the ropes. 


Once the rope was done being installed, I then made sure all the lights worked properly.

Of course, then there were ends of the ropes sticking out that I had to cut out. I used my scissors to cut them at the right length.

Here is the finished product!!! // My husband and his dad stripped the power cord so that we could hook it up to the light switch. //

It is hung in my dinning room and totally makes the whole room come together.

Here it was used at our wedding!

To see more photos from our wedding, see these posts:

Please note: I may not be the most electrically smart person in the world, so make this at your own risk. Please do necessary things in order to keep your home safe from fires. This may work for me, but it might not work for you.

Sunday, May 4, 2014

Weekend Update: Junk in the Trunk Vintage Market

Junk in the Trunk Vintage Market is probably my idea of Heaven on Earth. I will be going to this thing every year from now on. It has 173 different shops with antique home decor and handmade things. It is pretty much the Etsy market, but in one place and you can actually see things in person instead of looking at photos on your computer. I could of easily spent over $1,000 but luckily for my husband, I kept things at bay. I walked out spending just under $300, which to me is amazing, to my husband it's a victory. It could have been trouble, but I managed to get great finds at reasonable prices. The real trouble is now that I have a list of 173 stores that sell these types of products, I am going to go to one once a week with my mom and I will have our house overly furnished in no time! I have some photos to share of the event, along with my finds and what I have done with them! I had a few stores I knew for sure I was going to be looking at for sure, but I had Jaxn Blvd first on my list // before all the signs were sold out! //. Check out their Instagram or their Etsy shop ASAP! 

This is how long the line was at 8:15am. Only 15 minutes after they opened, it was the entire length of the parking lot at Westworld.

I could finally see the where the entrance was at about 8:45am.

The first find we hung up was this one from Jaxn Blvd. It totally adds to the house and looks perfect in our entry way!

Next up is the progression of the hallway's vintage gallery wall. 

Andrew's parents stopped by as we were finishing our last one. His dad snapped a photo of us!

The few different shops I got these wonderful things from are: